who you are

I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf ...
"no,no, no, no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
(Who you are)x11

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould , yeah!
The more I try the less it's working yeah yeah yeah
Cause everything inside me screams, "no,no,no,no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos
Fake shows like woah
Just go, and leave me alone
Real talk real life
Good love goodnight
With a smile that's my home
That's my home

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Who you are

jessie j-who you are.

i realised this lyrics is a reminder of myself by not losing the real me.its true that my mind is messed up and im trying hard to get over it.hopefully i will.

are you jia yi?

hello world,i'm back. its been in a while and now i'm having a four month holiday if i surprisingly pass all the modules.this post is just to report my whereabout and gonna blog more often than usual if im not lazy k?haha gonna promise myself.alright been a almost 3 months misery and maybe it still goes on.its really an awful experience and a good one i would say. everything taught me a lesson and of course there are regrets.if someone give me a pill that remove all my memories,i seriously will take that,too painful for me.but im trying hard to survive and hopefully i will. i want to find that wild and laugh like nobody business jia yi.i think she is missing recently.anyway gonna be in my sweet home for 4 months and hopefully i will get my internship and have fun.anybody free and just find me any time.im free for anything.

still same old word.trust.

trust is everything.

if you trust me,then you know i didn mean it .

if you dont trust me,then no matter what i do still can't change everything.

and still hoping you trust me.

Mind is blown.

Yes. My mind is blown by all the thoughts.

and lately cant seem to find my real self.its all the other side of me.the cautious one.
I have to admit i am a super sensitive human being ever in this world.
It's totally not ok to have this ability,it just blow your mind away and you can't seem to concentrate anything surrounds you.
and after all this,i finally realise that its all me.
Its the perfection that i looking for,its me who being so greedy wanting everything that exist.
i was so wrong in the first place.thought its gonna be a smooth and a happy journey.
I thought that everything is just gonna happen as what i think and said.
sadly,the most important thing in this uni for me is no longer exist.
is this 4 years gonna be memorable as high school?i doubt that but i still cant deny anything yet.
things just changes second by second and you never know.
I'm not trying to be emo here just that the circumstances now makes me think is there any purpose Im being in this place?
to become a great pharmacist?to meet great friends and go through this 4 years together?
Its just some random day without class.I wont remember this day but i will remember this blog when i read back in the future.
no doubt misses my high school and college buddies.
miss that kind of feeling when the eye contacts between us is so real.
Its me who cause myself miserable and desperate,but too bad I dont have cure for that.
all I can do is to heal myself one day by one day.try not to think too much.


i do want to jump to the sea now all by myself and stay under the sea as long as possible.
Im not trying to commit suicide here.not that stupid.haha
but helping myself to clear my mind a litttle.
hoping to redefine my life now.
dont laugh at me or thought im being emo or some psycho,im sure you gonna been through this stage just like me.

Crap everything.

As you can see from my title,yes.you are thinking the right way.

Imma gonna crap everything in this post.

So just bear with me cos really in the mood of blogging but have no specific stuff to write.

So just came back from jungle with Cindy,my current course mate and gang mate and ex primary school mate.

I gotta said the journey was great as 2 girls talking non-stop(well,I am suppose to sleep cos i was so freaking tired but the driver kept talking to me)LOL.

nah.the fact is I just afraid that she might doze off while driving and the only to keep me alive is to talk to her.LOL.

So the only point that i want to mention about her driving skill is fast although she kept saying she drive very slow.not gonna mention the duration we used from jungle to jb.

I scared u might think we having f1 competition.

before that,two of my beloved friends came to jungle out of nowhere is like President of United states come to notts to give a speech.no he can and yes they can.bought them to have 2 of the best foods in jungle.hope they love it.

and really hope that we have more outings like this and save me from boredom.thankyouverymuch.

and 100ft deep down in my heart really appreciated that they came.

one last thing that i want to talk about is I just realise they are so many people private-kan their blogs.

I really want to do that too but if i do that,whats the difference with writing a diary.

dont tell me that typing save more energy than writing.no excuse.

Somehow I just want to leave my blog open and really hope that there are only few reader cos i dont want it to be many too.

gonna end this lame post by posting a quote.

somehow all this quotes are one of the motivation that kept me moving forward.

worry is the misuse of the imagintaion.

how to kill boredom?

So mind sharing how to kill boredom?

apparently I had a long weekend which I spent all my time in the room watching Prison Break.

Indeed worth to rewatch again but not at the moment.

Just finished prison break the second time and I already forgot that Michael died in the end,

so thats make me even sad.

I really cannot believe myself i got nothing to do.REALLY.

maybe i haven find the 'connection' here yet.good luck with it.

and ride with me.

the feel is back.

Im here to announce that im back to blogging career again.

I have no idea why the urge is getting stronger each day but I will deal with it

because there is no way i'm gonna blog now as exam is just around the corner.

and everyone please say a big welcome to 2011.

2010 passed so fast like im dont even notice it.

new year resolution??

hopefully i can pass all the exams and successfully enter the 2nd year.

well,i guess i dont have much time now and shall see you soon.

To be continued...

6 . 4 . 1991

To someone that say me lame for thousands times....
Happy Birthday to you.
and every year we cant get rid of the primary school issue isn't?LOL
Most important thing is you are my longest friend ever for now.
and it continues......
and I never regret of knowing you.
I know true friends are the one who always call you a bitch, loser, weird, lamer etc.
and know that you are not serious.
and I treasure a friend like you.
and I wont tell you I posted this until you found it.LOL(copy you)
Happy birthday again and have a blast.
stay cool,and I always uncool.
I love you .